I got the wrong notebook the last time I attended a meeting. To my surprise, it was my old notes where I used to write my poems or anything in my mind. The writings showed how much emotions I have given to this guy who happened to be a jerk. FYI, he is also Mr. Shallow. OA ko no? Good thing that God showed me that he is not the one.
Please don't look at me, just sit beside me Please don't ask me, just be a friend to me Let me love you in silence 'coz for now, it's just I wanted it to be
Sabi nila ang tunay na pagmamahal walang tinitingnang estado o kapintasan bakit ng pinili kita marami ang nagtaas ng kilay
I love you less when you're mad coz all I can see is bad I love you less when you're grumpy and the mood swings that I can't ride I love you less when you take me for granted Because I knew I deserve more than this I guess my feelings is not enough to love you wholly
There will be a time in our lives we will meet someone who will touch our heart someone who will leave a mark and change a part of our lives Someone who will make us glad and even sad
Since magic lamps and genies only exist in fairy tales, I asked my wishes to God. I have 3 that i believed will complete my life.I'm praying that He'll really grant me this wishes
1. My promotion.I've been working hard and performing the same task for five years. I believed that I deserve to be promoted. Before, I have no doubt but due to the change in management my chance got lower. The bad thing in a government office is you don't get promoted automatically, you need to apply if you want to be promoted. The management can put someone they like, they called it management prerogative. I wished that God will grant them a heart of fairness that they will consider my skills, experience and dedication to my work.
2.My romantic relationship. I wished to be in a romantic relationship. I'm not getting any younger. Could I handle my relationship? What is the essence of me if I cannot share myself. I wanted to be married and to have my own family to take care of. Even if it is so much to ask I wanted it to be with I. But with the way things are going, i'm about to lose my chance. Maybe by not transacting with him would open the doors to friendship, then again, I will hear him say my name without the Ma'am. Eventually, we will be :)
3. Approval / Issuance of my US Visa If the two fails, then there's nothing left for me here. I really need to change my environment and plan another. I've been keeping everything on hold because of the US Visa. If i become AO4 and i had I, i would love to stay.
Are my wishes impossible? If i have them I could not ask anything anymore. Lord, please.
I am so sad today that I was not able do what I planned to do. If there's truth about Friday the 13th as being "malas" then I've got mine last night. I've read in FB that she is to be transferred to other branch . To my disbelief he is also going to be transferred to a different branch. There's this SOP that every 5 years they need to be assigned to a different branch to avoid familiarity and for security purposes.
He's been very nice every time I visit the branch. I felt the special treatment. I cannot see him anymore. no more chance. no more kilig moments :(
I hope in the future this will turn into my favor. Lord, please.
Kirsten loves surprises. Unluckily, she hasn't receive one. Then came her 25th birthday and it totally blew her off.
Who wouldn't be? She's getting married next month with someone her parents has set for her. Surprisingly, her groom-to-be is Yeoj. Someone she has kept in her heart for years before she finally decided to let go and met James. Yeoj who has his wrong impressions about her, all along thought that she has conspired with his parents.
Would the bethrotal bring back the old sparks? Would Yeoj look at Kirsten differently this time around?
I have written this last April 16, 2009, inspired by the film Bucket List.
1. Make my parents happy especially my mom.
2. Treat my sisters on a spa or shopping.
3. To have my US visa approve.
4. To be in a romantic relationship.
5. To go to Africa as a volunteer worker.
6. To visit Europe, see the Eiffel Tower, Barcelona and the London Bridge.
7. To kiss and dance in the rain.
8. Someday, i'll be able to face and talk to the person who hurt me most and finally forgive. - Done.
9. To get married with all the trimmings. someone who loves me and to the one i love.
10. To have kids ( just 2 - a boy and a girl).
11. To wear a skimpy bikini on the beach. I did it last May 2011 in Boracay but I was not that confident enough that I just did it for a photo.
12. A guilty free shopping. - I did it but I limit myself for a 5K budget
13. To go an a cruise.
14. To try different sport like the extreme ones, bungee jumping or wall climbing. I did white water rafting in last May 2010.
15. Overcome my fears of height.
16. To drive a car.
17. To play on the snow.
18. To dance salsa/ samba.
19. To decorate my room.
20. To buy a house.
21. To change my wardrobe. Little by little - 50%
22. Out of town vacation with my family. We spent my 30th birthday in Bohol, Cebu and Boracay.
23. A happy family reunion (both sides). We had a reunion on both sides, it was a happy occasion but tainted with some issues during preparation. 24. To visit Rome.
25.To publish my stories - sell books or see it on TV.
26. I wanted to be surprise.
Today, I am happy to know that for almost three years I accomplished some on the list. I'll try to work out the remaining items ;)
Pauleena, a hopeless romantic heiress always wanted something extraordinary to a typical wheel-heeled life. She never wanted to be known. Ironically, her environment did not make it easy for her
Her high hopes on love stumbled when she found out that the men she trusted and looked up to cheated. She becomes wary in getting into a relationship and lost her faith in men. Then came Zach. When Pauleena thought she is ready to take her chance on love, she discovers the truth about Zach.
Zach, who have thought that his life has already come full circle. Knowing her, made him realize the missing piece. Now, he was caught in between his past and the present.
Would their love be ever given a chance? Or it's too late now - it should remain unsaid and best forgotten?
I always love writing the way i love reading. I used to keep a journal where i write anything that comes to mind. i made poems. i did some blogs. i even kept a personal diary since grade school. But i don't consider myself as a writer. it's just my hobby
But now i can finally say that I'm a writer. i'm proud to say that i am one. it's not just blogging or keeping a diary of myself but writing a story- some thing like novels but more on romance genre ;)
at first i just want to fill in those free times that i have. i easily get bored when i'm not doing anything. then i became obsessed with it.
my first story was three years in the making. i read it hundred times and made tons of revisions before i finally posted it. it took me a while to end it. my moods were erratic that i can't find myslef inspired to write the ending.
i was so surprised with the responses given by my readers. Being a novice in this field, i wasn't expecting that much. Even the old writers were moved by my piece. Because of them, i was inspired to do another story.
My second story is something experimental. i was afraid i can't sustain it.but i still try. now i was done its 7 chapters. It is daring but not to the extent of being sexy or pornographic. the theme is something complicated and uncommon. i even don't know where i found the courage to write it. The feedbacks were great. i was pleased that there were people out there who appreciate my work. People who i don't know personally. Who are always there anticipating for the updates of my story. People who get upset if there were none.
To my friends and family, i know i didn't tell you and i didn't share my works. it doesn't mean you are not important to me.I know you are always supportive. i just need to do it for myself. one day, i'll send you a copy ;)
i may not publish one of my works or make it a best-seller in the market (to date, i have no plans of printing it) but i'm happy to found new friends.